Since the word prompt for the day is cherish, I think I better add a few words here today. I have been an angry person for a very long time.
I just thought that is who I was, I thought it was normal. I found out real quick in July of last year when I sorta melted down and had to put myself in the hospital.
I did this so I wouldn’t harm myself or Mutt my dog or anyone else.
I was in a very bad way that night and I never want to go back down that darkened road. With several visits to a local Psychiatrist and therapist, it was determined that I am bipolar. Plus I was addicted to Oxycodone and with the doctor’s help, I weaned myself off them. So I wouldn’t have any pills I could actually kill myself within the home. I am very happy to finally be getting the right medicine to control my anger, anxiety, and depression.
I have several people to thank for helping me through this, and I cherish each and every one of them. They know who they are I don’t need to name any names. I have had great support from my family and my girlfriend and my friends. Whether they were my actual friends in real life or my virtual friends they mean the same to me I love them dearly.
I just wanted to say a few words about what I cherish the most in 2017 and I am starting 2018 with a clear heart and mind. If you owe me anything, don’t worry about it, you’re welcome. If you’ve done me wrong, it’s all good it was a lesson I learned. If you’re mad at me, you’ve won I’m not fighting. If we aren’t speaking, that’s cool (I still love you and wish you well). If you feel I have done you wrong, I apologize. Life is way too short for all the pent-up anger or holding any grudges and extra pain. For those I’ve lost touch with, I still think of you often and miss you.
Love and Blessings to you all!
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!